Today I’m over at Tanya Marlow’s blog talking about God and Suffering. I met Tanya through Elora Nicole’s Story Sessions community. Tanya is such a gift to the blogosphere because she is real about faith, suffering, and holding faith in spaces of gray. I am always encouraged by her affirming words.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the last few years, it’s that not all suffering is physical. Not all suffering is that same, and yet the impact on faith of any kind of suffering can be life changing. Here’s a bit of my story of dealing with the suffering of hurts, habits, and hang-ups.
I remember always feeling broken, like something was wrong or amiss. I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin. I couldn’t quite figure out why I was claiming Christ but not bearing his fruit. I was doing everything I knew to do to show I was his. I was striving and doing all the right things, and yet my soul was flailing. I was miserable and weary from trying so hard. Every two steps forward was also two steps, if not four, backwards.
Why wasn’t this Christian life working the way it had been preached from the pulpit, from the books, from the bible, from friends, from family? It wasn’t working. My faith was faltering, and I began to inwardly crumble.
You can read the rest of my story about God and Suffering at Tanya’s place. I hope you are encouraged as you read. This too shall pass.
You can also link up over at Real Talk Tuesday as we talk about God in the Everyday.